One year ago yesterday was my appointment with Dallas IVF. The doctor gave me the unwelcome news that I would need a D&C hysteroscopy surgery to remove a uterine polyp. That was not an easy day for me, and it certainly was not the last wall or hurdle I would face in the embryo adoption journey, which is paused indefinitely at the moment. I was caught off guard seeing this picture on Google Photos -- so much has changed for me over the past year, and I'm feeling very reflective about it all. I'm guessing I'll write more on that down the road, but it's still marinating for now.
I woke up feeling nauseous and "off" today... I initially thought it was emotional stuff affecting me negatively, but I felt achy and got worse through the morning, and sure enough, I took an at-home test during lunch and tested positive for Covid. Then texted everyone at work and Restore and gladly went back to bed for several hours.
I don't love that it's happening so near the end of my internships, but part of me was immediately thankful for the forced slow-down and time off - like God knew I needed that right now, and I should be better in time for my planned trip.
Sarah came to spend the day with me in OKC yesterday (praying she avoids getting sick - I so didn't see this coming). Here's our pic by my Tulsa wall, at Mom and Dad's house, and swimming... we also did lunch at Oliveto, tax-free shopping for Kate at Target, and dinner at Charleston's...
And a Facetime call with Chet Lee. lol
A distant friend posted this, and I had so many thoughts about it... sharing them here rather than social media.
Strongly disagree - that would be a false faith in something that does not exist. I am 100% uninterested in an earthly life without the promise of a future in heaven. The eternal hope we have through Christ is and should be the driving force of our lives. And yes, our faith and our relationship with Christ gives us the ability to carry God's Kingdom into the here and now, partially. To be a light in the dark world, to live with hope and renew our minds and do our best to pray for and help create a surrounding atmosphere "on earth as it is in heaven." Partially! But the Bible is very clear that "all that we know now is partial and incomplete," so for us to expect the fullness of heaven here on earth is a false hope that will be disappointed. We all want more, but that's the point of any good preview. There will not be complete harmony here on earth, now, today, in this moment. Total fulfillment will not happen for any of us here - our earthly experience is always partial and incomplete - that is quite literally a Biblical promise. BUT there will be massive redemption and healing and Jesus making all things new someday... grand reunions and freedom from death and decay WILL happen in Heaven, and casually dismissing that idea or losing sight of the value of that promise is literally the most ignorant thing we could do. We have Jesus now, today, in this moment. We have our faith in Him, our eternal hope through Him, and His love flowing in us and through us. And even there, our relationship with Him will be richer and more tangible when we're together in Heaven, and what a hopeful reminder that is!
"Now we see things imperfectly, like puzzling reflections in a mirror, but then we will see everything with perfect clarity. All that I know now is partial and incomplete, but then I will know everything completely, just as God now knows me completely." ~I Corinthians 13:12
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