Marathon Monday #16

Four weeks to the Finish Line!!  I jogged 16 miles Saturday morning, and I felt good and strong while I was out there!  Due to a bit of hip pain that may have caused me excessive concern, I toned it down and took Thursday and Friday as complete rest days, then Sunday was also rest and recovery, stretching and sitting with the heating pad.  I was sore post-run, but nothing out of the ordinary, and I feel better and ready for some light hills and strength training today.  My feet are getting tougher in a good way, and my mental resilience is growing stronger now too!  I want to use wisdom and avoid pushing myself too hard, but by the end of Friday night, I felt tired of my own excuses and determined and ready to get out there on Saturday morning, and that was good for me to press through my own fear and inner drama... I'm in the home stretch, and it's exciting!!

I'm super grateful for Central Park at The Station in Moore - it's been the perfect training ground for me in so many ways... a lovely lake/pond with ducks and geese and turtles, a 1.27-mile clean and open trail where loads of people come to train or to walk their cute dogs, the ability to stop by my car regularly for water or energy chews as needed, and easy access to a clean bathroom and filtered water at The Station - YAY!!  This = a turtle fam getting some sun this weekend.  They're much braver when they have crowd support.  One turtle by itself would've popped right back into the water when I stopped for a pic, as I know from lots of experience. lol

Once again, I stopped for a bathroom break and changed my socks at mile 9... I think that helps my mind to feel like it's a fresh start and it helps prevent terrible blisters (or so I tell myself), so I'm planning to pack a bag with extra running socks, body glide, etc. for Mom to have ready on Marathon day so I can stop and change into fresh dry socks once or twice. lol

I was out there for around 4 hours - I remembered sunscreen this time, but should have reapplied midway through.  This round, I spent the entire jog listening to an Apple Music playlist of 2000s hits, which was a fun dose of variety and familiar memories!  I had one slow interval set where I walked an extra 3 minutes because my heart felt like it was racing, but outside of that, I was very steady in my walk/jog intervals, so I'm confident that's the winning formula for race day!!

Yay for the redbud (should be purple-bud) trees!  Boo for the wasp duo that I dramatically changed course to avoid! lol

Four weeks from now, I'll have reached this long-anticipated goal, and I'll be recovering and feeling proud and grateful for this journey.  And shifting my focus to new meaningful goals for the road ahead of me.  I still feel confused and disenchanted sometimes, but the lack of purpose I felt for most of my 20s and 30s has vanished.  There is so much I want to do and accomplish, and I'm more concerned that there isn't enough time for all of it (but whatevs, we have eternal life ahead of us - what a gift!!)  Anyway, happy last day of March, friends and fam!!  I'm confident that you're finishing strong in this first quarter of 2025!  (*Friendly reminder that tomorrow is April Fool's Day.)

Steadfast Sunday

Happy Sunday, friends and fam!!  I jogged 21 freaking miles today, so I had to start off with that, but I'll cover it in more detail tomorrow. =)

Here's me and Kristin on our Wednesday walk (on my 15,000th day).  We had a good talk, and I hope they're having a fun family trip to Fort Worth this weekend!

Get excited - the cap and gown arrived this week!! ❤

'Twas another victorious volleyball weekend, with Kyndal Faith and her team actually winning gold in the entire tournament!!  This = them celebrating after Kyndal's final serve that got them to 25!

They beat 5 teams (some took 3 games, as it's always best 2 out of 3, but they won them all in the end, and I'm proud of them for fighting so hard!!)

K-Faith and her friends from the 17s Charge team... and a family pic with the medal winner!  (Side note: the 17s team was sitting behind our fam, and several of those girls are big fans of Grey's Anatomy, and I was tempted to jump into their intense discussion about it! lol)

We stopped by JoBug's to meet Miss Karsten Blaire and see Asher Kenneth for a bit!  JoBug's grandma name is "Sassy," and that makes me happy!

Dabbing to match their volleyball leprechaun shirts for St. Patrick's Day! lol

The Peak gym had an entire side for beach volleyball.  Did I roll up my jeans and hop in the sand for a while?  Yes, definitely!  Did the grains of sand stay with me longer than I'd hoped?  Also yes. lol But #noragrets.

Yay, Mini Miss K and the Charge 11s team... Silver medals last weekend, and gold this weekend!!

I listened to Margaret Beck's The Way of Integrity this weekend (finished it during today's long run).  She mentioned the Drama Triangle, so I looked it up to learn more... which led to learning about the Empowerment Dynamic, which is the better side of the Drama Triangle.  ❤

There is a great deal of unresolved tension in my life lately, and it's become harder to tolerate, and I was quite literally planning to write a post tomorrow about letting go of the motherhood dream and walking away from online dating for now... and then I watched this short video while randomly researching the above triangles this morning.  Her rubber band illustration is simple but profound... or perhaps it's just that the timing was perfectly aligned for me in this moment.  I am beyond tired of the "dynamic tension" and anxiety of unmet dreams and deferred hopes, BUT I don't want to be in victim mode and shrink/lower my own dreams in order to resolve it.  So my only other choice is to be prayerful and get brutally honest about what I really want most, and stay intentional about taking action to move my current reality closer to my dreams and vision for my future.  In whatever unmet goals you may be facing, I hope this encourages you today too!  (I set it to start at the part that helped me, but feel free to start from the beginning.)

Okay, that's all for today.  God is with us and for us, and He is at work behind the scenes, even and maybe especially when we feel very tempted to give up.  His power is real; His love is steadfast; I'm praying that my resolve will be stronger and more steadfast, as well.

Song of the Week = "Precious Love" by James Morrison, courtesy of Schitt's Creek ❤

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Fifteen Thousand

The Queen of Random Information here, letting you all know today is my 15,000th day on earth, which just popped up on the calendar reminder I set for myself a few years ago. lol  Hooray for Day 15,000!! ❤

I actually wrote a post for Day 10,000 (HERE) back in 2011.  It fell right in between our OKC road trip to celebrate Malori's birthday and me being the Maid of Honor at Rachael's wedding.  Needless to say, a lot has changed over time, and every season God gives us is a gift!  I appreciate that this falls on a relatively ordinary day, and I like the reminder that our days are numbered and Every Second Counts.  I could go on and on about it, but I'll spare you that.  I am very grateful for the people who have stayed the course with me, and I'm grateful for the daily grace of God, and I'm praying for a renewed sense of God-given hope, clarity, and purpose as I continue to move forward!!

"I figure life's a gift,
and I don't intend on wasting it.
You never know what hand you're gonna get dealt next.
You learn to take life as it comes at you,
to make each day count."
-Jack Dawson (Rest in Peace)

 

 Cheers! lol

45 days from now, I will run the OKC Memorial Marathon.  I'm pushing myself harder for these final 7 weeks of training - already feeling sore from that, but I'm excited about putting more heart into it!  I hope the same holds true for you in whatever goal you are pursuing in this season!!

Okay then, that's really all for this post.
I love you and believe in you, and Jesus does too!!

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Weekend Update

It's been a good weekend... here's a quick recap.  Yesterday was a Tulsa trip for the Mini Miss K's volleyball tournament (The Kaizen Invitational at the Cox Business Center downtown).  Dad and I drove separately and met Rach and Kyndal there (they stayed Friday to Sunday).  

High fives with the club coaches and parents! =)

She aced 7 jump-serves in a row in two of the afternoon games I watched - go Kyndal Faith!!

Without getting into all the details, they shifted some things around and changed up her position, which was a big disappointment initially... but she's showing a lot of resilience and heart and determination, and I'm super proud of her for that!!

LOVE her and always enjoy cheering for her team! ❤

Grandpa and Kyndal + the awesome hair ribbons Rach made for the team!

Front and center in the Tulsa sign pic after winning two games in a row!

Just Jace being Jace and making himself a snow beard on one of the below-freezing days last week! lol

YAY for my new diploma frame - get excited! =)

Parker E. hid to be funny when she saw that I was taking a pic... then I said, "Oh, Tate's smiling back there..." and she popped right up to do what Tate was doing! lol #siblingrivalry #alwaysfunnytome

After the volleyball tournament, I had a 2.5-hour tea time chat with Kristin Renee at Parea Coffee... then we met the Wilsons and the rest of the Foster fam for an early dinner at the Broken Arrow Chick-Fil-A!!

The kids table was the cutest and reminded me of me, Rach, Clint, and Ty back in the day!!

My fav quote from our convo:

Me (explaining my 75-Soft plan):  "Yeah, I'm throwing myself into online dating in this season.  Sooo the men of the world have 75 days, and then..." (I was pausing trying to think how to phrase adoption/embryo adoption/focusing on motherhood)

Chettles:  "Nunnery!!" lolol

I randomly thought about that and laughed out loud a couple times today!!

Group pic before we left - love this group!!  And yay for a kind CFA worker offering to take the pic!

I walked 12 miles tonight... both before and after, my feet are in rough shape, and I just didn't feel up to running, but I'm proud that I got the miles in anyway!  I listened to Harry Potter book 3 (and laughed and cried along the way - gracious, those books bring out all the emotions for me - so freaking good).  I enjoyed the sunshine -- it was t-shirt weather for 90% of the walk, but the top layer of the lake was still mostly frozen and the geese were just standing on the ice. lol  In other news, check out my cute new Sketchers shoes!!  Fun!

Mmkay that's all for today.

Hope you've had a lovely weekend and hope it's a great week ahead for you!

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Life in All its Fullness (41)

"The thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy.

I have come that they may have LIFE,

and have it in all its fullness."

~Jesus, John 10:10

Happy 41st Birthday to Me! ❤

This = my wonderful Tulsa friend group celebrating with me at Los Cabos last night!! ❤

An awesome, sparkly new mug from JEM and Kelly!!  (And a "Birthday Girl" tiara Chet bought for Mom's 70th bday but forgot, so I claimed it for my party!)  =)

Jeffrey and Henry Edward! =)

My mini-BFF, Parker Elizabeth!! ❤

Harvey Lane and Tate Haywood! =)

So much cuteness!!

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Hey, Wilson fam.... for real for real, THANK YOU.  For the key role you've played in my life, obviously, but more specifically today, for the role you've played in making my birthdays special over the past decade+.  Hosting a few of my parties, planning two surprise parties in OKC, baking or buying the cake repeatedly, making fun birthday banners, Cricut cake toppers, great gifts and cards, Swiftie-themed party decor, a surprise snow-day visit, video songs from the kids, a random birthday bonfire (at my request), and more... really just coming through every year in big and small ways - it is much appreciated!!  (The second-from-right pic on the bottom row = Chet adding peanut butter chips to the Ludger's cake for extra decoration, and it brings me joy that that even occurred to him. lol)

I made this for my friend, Kristen, in January.  And today, I am believing for myself that the best is yet to come in my story... God has a better idea of what that means than I do, but I AM TRUSTING HIM.

Hooray for this well-timed holiday!!  

(I would very much welcome a courthouse closing tomorrow, as well.)

I slept in this morning, then Kristin and the boys treated me to lunch!  Our original plan was Neighborhood Jam, but that was everyone else's plan too. lol  To avoid the 45-minute wait, we went to BJ's, where we all enjoyed lunch and mini-pizookies!! ❤

The boys also brought me flowers and candy and a sparkly pink card they picked out for me themselves with a set of stick-on nails! lol  Could not love it more - thanks again, Whitakers!! ❤

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We have a spiritual enemy whose actual stated goal is to steal, kill, and destroy the good things God is doing in our lives -- I have sensed that more than usual lately.  We also have a caring and powerful God who wants to give us LIFE in all its beauty and fullness -- so I am leaning into that abundant energy and hope today!  There is life and hope and healing in Jesus, and His goodness and mercy and wisdom and love are with me today.

“Christianity is not a promise to enjoy a life without pain, nor to be given a shortcut through it. It is a promise that pain, sorrow, sin – ours and others – will not swallow us, destroy us, define us, or have the final word. Jesus has won the victory. And in Him, so have we!” 

~Stasi Eldredge

So in spite of this dreadfully cold weather and feeling a little blue and off-kilter last week, February remains my favorite month, and this has been a really fantastic birthday weekend!!  And now I'm off to meet the fam for a late birthday dinner at Ted's (after Kyndal's vball practice). ❤

Thanks so much for stopping by.

I love you and believe in you, friends and fam,

and I hope you've had a great day on my 41st birthday!!

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Faith & Fortitude

Happy Wednesday, my friends!  I just finished a 2-mile jog (5:2 run/walk intervals) around Main Street Norman, and now I'm enjoying my end-of-day small piece of fudge (salted caramel dark chocolate - so freaking good - it's like these attorneys don't know I'm on WW. lol)  Our office is currently full of holiday treats, and I am being mindful and tracking what I eat, so yay for that!  I've also made a new rule for myself that I can't watch TV at home or post anything on FB or Instagram until that day's workouts are completed.  Motivating!  (That doesn't apply to blogging, for the record.)

Okay, on to the real topic for today... this little nod from God popped up on my FB feed as I was in the waiting room this morning.

I had a consultation appointment at OU Reproductive Medicine (backstory here).  Dr. Evans was very kind about my weight loss success, which felt good.  We went over my IUI history, the October hysteroscopy and summer weight loss surgery, and discussed my current options (looking toward summer 2025).  I was given information on the embryo adoption agencies they work with, info on a  fertility testing procedure I could have before trying another IUI, info on this clinic vs. a Tulsa clinic, and an IVF cost sheet ($11k without genetic testing, $14k with it, $700 for anesthesia, then $3500 for the embryo transfer IF there are any viable embryos, which decrease drastically as women age -- and let's not forget the donor sperm, which is $2000 per vial).  Clearly, IVF would be my very best chance of having a biological child.  When I tally up the home studies, profile books, payments to adoption agencies, sperm banks, and past IUIs, I have spent well over $10,000 already...

Financially, physically, and emotionally, the cost is high.  For those whose heart is in it, the (unguaranteed) reward of parenthood is higher.  The same would be true for so much of life as a single mom.

Spiritually, I feel a surprising sense of grace and peace about all of this right now.  I do not have to make this decision today.  God is with me and for me, leading me in big and small ways, and "I will bless the Lord who guides me."  If I were to become pregnant, I have a great support system and there would be so much joy in that news!  If I spend the money and a pregnancy does not pan out (a very real possibility), at least I would know I did everything in my power and I feel the financial security and freedom to take that risk if it's where God is leading.  And if I feel like God is opening other doors and calling me to focus on other things, that will genuinely be okay too.  I firmly believe that God loves me and has good things ahead for me, and that's all I have to know right now.

(This = their bulletin boards as you exit filled with cards and photos from grateful families. I stood there for a while soaking in the joy and hope represented there - I love it!)

This also popped up on my FB feed as I was in the waiting room... Lysa TerKeurst (a very resilient, Godly woman) reminding us that the God who was and is and is to come HAS BEEN faithful, IS CURRENTLY faithful, and WILL BE  faithful!!

That's all for today.  No decision, just the inner fortitude and endurance to carry on with faith in God's goodness, no matter what lies ahead.  I hope this post strengthens your sense of fortitude (courage in pain or adversity) and faith through whatever hard things you might be facing... any areas where life, health, work, family, etc. do not look the way you had  planned/expected.  Keep showing up and doing your best, remembering God's faithfulness in the past and trusting that He loves you and will guide you and has good things ahead!

I wait for the Lord.

I expectantly wait.

And confident in Him, I keep watch.

I will wait with hope and expectancy for the God of my salvation.

My God will hear me.

Do not gloat over me, my enemy.

Each time I fall, I will rise.

And even when I sit in darkness, the Lord will be my light.

(Micah 7:7-8)

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